Dialogues in Solitude

Do you wanna know a part of my dialogues with me in my solitude? 

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You could never see me, you know?!

Do you know why? Because we are from two different worlds.

Do you know why?

Because you chose the world everyone liked and went to and I chose a world where no one was in before.

You touched me, but you never stayed cause you were looking for the ‘perfect match’ --- spoiler alert; there is no perfect match.

It's you who makes the match perfect. 

I always used to make things. I always used to fix things. If my toy ever broke, I would fix it; I wouldn’t go for another toy. I always loved my toys, you know.

Seeing is an art! To become an artist, you need to feel. When you don’t feel, you don’t see, you just look!

Do you know why you can’t feel? Because you don’t go inside of you to see your heart, you think what others think, because you’ve chosen to live in their world. If you don’t think what they think, you’ll be out of their league and dropped out of their world and that’s not what you want.

You know, what I’m saying can’t get to you cause our languages are different – different worlds. You can’t even understand me! But eyes don’t lie! – My eyes never lied to you.

Eyes can't lie, even if they want to. There’s something about them. I know you know that too, don’t you?!

Your people may say I’m lying - that’s true; in your world.

It’s funny, but you can’t do what you want in your world, don’t you think so?! J

-         How you think.

-         How you talk.

-         How you work.

-         How you live.

-         How you love!

In my world, it’s me who says how they have to be done. It becomes sometimes difficult but pleasant at the end of the day.

Why?

I guess the fact that makes it hard to do is what makes it pleasant too.

We’ll die one day for sure, though you’ll die forever and I’ll be eternal.

And now going is like the old friend's saying:  "What you seek is seeking you"

- I do, I know you do too!

Ideas of Wrong-doing and Right-doing

There’s saying: “You mustn’t lie but you don’t have to always tell the truth”.

This sentence makes sense to me mathematically. If lying and telling the truth are considered bad and good acts respectively, therefore, I can generalize it to all the bad and good acts that I know of; one such could be to love and show affection to one. However, this may seem a bit off-key or unsentimental to many people.

I think, however out of experience, spending our love and affection for someone should be conditional. Conditional to the extent we know them, conditional to the extent they deserve. Differently acted could more often result in a melancholy state.

I also think that love and affection are invaluable and shouldn’t be spent easily. It takes a heart to love someone and if not spent on the right person it can cost a heart and a lifetime of making up for it.

I have always followed the philosophy that we must love people irregardless of the consequences. Now I question myself; is it true after all? Should I?

All said, I’m always drawn toward this line of a poem by Rumi:
“Beyond the ideas of wrong-doing and right-doing, there’s a field, I’ll meet you there”. 

Cheers!

Iman Ghavam